Sometimes you have to make a choice but nothing seems right. It feels like everything is falling apart and you don’t have time to think, but you have to choose. Ever felt that pressure? I love being able to choose but I also hate choosing at times. I wish I had someone to make my choices for me but the sad fact is that there is no one there.
It feels great when you make the right choice and it feels amazing to be chosen as well, but it sucks when your choice is wrong. I have a lot of regrets because I wasn’t able to overcome the fear of choosing. I have come to realize that now is the right time to talk no matter what it is. If you like someone, tell them before it’s too late. Don’t sit there and make a list of pros and cons because if not now, you will be stuck with regret.
I overanalyze things and then it just becomes really complicated and I feel like a professional over-thinker. Some time ago, I used to wait for this person to come online, and finally, when he did, I would keep thinking about his reaction to my texts and I missed the chance to talk at all. But now, even if I screw up by reacting, I honestly have no regrets because the choice would have been mine.
Now, I just give my best shot always even though I face a lot of rejection to be honest. I still don’t know whether my choices are right but at least I know they are mine. Starting this blog was a quick idea. I felt scared and unsure but I did it anyway and now I feel really happy.
Making a choice can get complicated especially when your family and friends are involved because there is usually a lot of drama and opinions that come along. It feels as if some people face no problem in choosing while I can just sit there for hours thinking randomly about a particular person’s reaction to my Instagram story.
When I text people and they don’t reply, I get super tense and start overthinking. When I overthink, I start questioning myself, ending up feeling anxious and sad. This might sound weird but a single text can ruin my whole day and that’s true. Even though I say that I don’t care about what people think, the reaction of certain people means the world to me.
Anyone can disagree with me but it hits me hard when that one person disagrees. I have always felt like I am not worth it or that I am not good enough and it is all because I overthink. Some things are simple and it’s better to keep them simple. A friend once told me that I am overthinking because I want to handle the outcome which sounds true, but the outcome is not always in your hands.
When someone makes you feel happy, just go with it and don’t overthink because tomorrow the same person can make you feel unwanted. I stopped believing the things that I tell myself in the middle of the night because all of those thoughts are just results of overthinking. Take it from an over-thinker, when someone who overthinks tells you that they like you and that they will be there for you, they mean it. This over-thinker would have most assuredly thought of every reason not to.
Sometimes you just have to let it be and not try to choose the outcome by overthinking.
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Shivani Arvind
Shivani Arvind 